The city without the sex

I am quite the stay in person this weekend. OK, today I was much more active, even went on a small excursion to a city nearby (when we arrived I realised I had already been there with my parents in February and there is really not much to see), but as soon as I got back I turned on my laptop and watched SATC The movie.

I think it cheered me up a bit. Got me thinking how fabulous I can make my life, I just have to decide it. Change the stuff I dont like. Loose more weight. Move in my own appartement. Change the "friends" I am not anymore happy with. Find a bf just by getting out there. Nothing is impossible if I set my mind on it.

In this context, I think I ll try match.com. How much worst can my love life become?Right now it is inexistant, so things can only get better. Except if I meet someone and get pregnant?catch a disease?he breaks my heart ofcourse. Then I will be wishing for the good old single days to come back.

Right. I ll go now to the webpage to make py profile.

No. Not ready yet. ot ready to admit there is something "off" about me and I cant find a bf in the real world, so I need to search on the internet. No way I am doing it.

Maybe if I am still alone by January 1, 2010, i ll try it. Oh my god, it seems so close...I think it is impossible that I ll meet and fall for anyone in 3 months. I have pretty much forgotten how those things happen. Yesterday I was thinking that I will end up alone for the rest of my life.

Gentle reminder: if I ever get a new man in my life, I should be very very careful not to cheat or do anything really bad. Also think twice before breaking up with him, unless there is something really wrong(eg cheating, alcoholic, drug addict and so on).

cry baby

Just watched the curious story of benjamin button and I cried like a baby..hadn't cried like that in a very long time I think. Crying with sobs is good, afterwards I feel lighter, even happier. Although I dont like to have reasons to cry like that, only acceptable causes are filsm or grey's anatomy, NOTHING else.

The countdown has begun, I have little over two weeks left in Geneva...To be perfectly honest, I just cant wait for those two weeks to pass. I am incredibly bored both at the office and after working hours, not much todo or many people left to do something with. Evelina and Carmen are great, but I miss so much Alex and Veronique and our morning coffes and silly jokes. We could really get each other and just couldnt stop laughing when we were together. Now things are different.

I dont want to get to know the new interns, introduce myslef, make small talk etc. What is the pont anyway? I am leaving in two weeks and there is no sufficient time to really get to know each other. And just having random fun with them, means nothing to me anymore, I am past the "erasmus" phase. I dont need to meet more new people from more countries of the world, I have already met too many.I d rather sit alone at a coffee shop or at a restaurant than have to go out with unknown people, pretending to like them already or be interestedin their story.

Somebody is in a good mood today.

However, I did have a pretty good start to the day. Went to the post office with Evelina and sent all my books etc, that I couldnt carry with me on the plane, to Athens, so a big source of anxiety is gone. And then, went to lovely"Le pain quotidien" for coffee and pain au chocolat, which is my favourite habit right now. For the past week I have been having one pain au chocolat every morning with my coffee. My ass is still the same size, I ll let you know inhowmany weeks its size will double incase I keep that up:P

Anyway, the pain au chocolat was just lovely, the capuccino impressive at sight(although didnt really like the taste) and the scenery...oh, well, it is pleinpalais, I always love it!

And then went back home and didnt leave my room for the rest of the day...which could explain my bad mood tonight:(

I llt ry to do better tomorrow and go out after brunch for a walk and to take some fotos of the city. I wonder where I could go...

Bridget Jones is back...sort of

Spent the entire morning yesterday reading the latest columns of Bridget Jones's Diary in 2005-2006!I had been waiting for that soooo long and I finally found them online a few weeks ago....Actually I found the whole archives, since the 1995 Independent column, complimented with notes, fotos, scripts from the two films. For die hard BJ fans, just click here!

I am a bit disappointed about the latest developments- I am not going to say what happens so as not to spoil it for the rest of you- but still it was so weel written and totally in the spirit of the first years, HF didn't loose her touch after almost a decade, so I had a huge smile on my face when I finished reading!Now I am just craving for more...more columns that is, not the third film, because the second one was a total miss so I dont even want to imagine what will happen with the next one...Was wondering though: does BJ stil write in her calendar or is she now doing it in a blog?It would certainly made much more sense in our internet era:P

For the rest, I continue with the whole packing/getting ready to leave process. Bought yesterday material to make packets(scotch tape and the paper with the bubbles) and went on throwing away more stuff, paper, magazines etc. I have been getting much better in not keeping useless things just before I am emotionally attached to them: I figured out that being attached to things is completely stupid and pointless so I just throw or give away stuff, I really dont care.

At night we went out with E. and C. to eat at an eritrean restauran at Paquis: tasty food and sooo cheap. There was no variety, you can only choose between beef, chicken and vegetarian dish, no salads, appetizers etc, so it is great for indecisive people. Well, the beef was great, the red wine too and eating with our hands a lot of fun!

For anyone interested, it is almost in the corner of rue du mole and rue de lausanne, in Geneva. And it was crazy busy, we arrived around 19.45 and everything was reserved so had to wait 10 minutes for a table; by the time we left it was completely full!

Then went for desert at the movenpick ice cream shop in the middle of the rue du mont blanc. Ofcourse there was sooo much people, everyone was by thelake for the fireworks. Which were just amazing!They lasted for about an hour and they were accompanied by music...just awesome!And in the end they sent out golden fireworks, lots of them, and the sky was gold...wow!Never seen anything like that, it was totally worth it squeezing in with the thousands of people:)

Today is a slow day, woke up quite late, had breakfast, took a shower and proceeded with throwing away some more stuff and then some internet browsing, mainly throug blogs dedicated to house decoration, DIY etc. I wish I could be so creative...but I guess this is something you either have it or not. You vant really "cultivate" it. I think I am creative, but up to a point, not as much as I would like to. However, I am determined to grow a serious hobby this year: i will try to develop one of those that I already practice from time to time: jewlery making or painting. Let's see how that one goes.

I also watched "The ugly truth" and made me thinking. Not serious thoughts though. More like"what do I have to do to finally seriously attract someone and get a bf at last because I cant stand anymore the celibacy". Obviously I shouldnt take seriously the advice giventhroughthe film to Katherine Heigl, because in the end it is obvious that there ruels like that do nt exist for relationships, but still...I think I have to improve a bit more the "visual" part. OK, I have shed quite a few kg's during the last year and admittedly I look much better: thinner and more toned body(though there is still way to go), clearer skin, healthier hair (decided to give up on coloring, highlights that had made my hair very very dry and damaged and just keep my natural color, which everyone says is great), softer skin-it is crazy how much body milk I have used during the last few months...and I love the wholeprocedure in applying creams etc after having showered:)

So what is there more to do? Well...

1. loose some more weight: should really commit to that while I am still in GVA and going to aqua gym classes, because it helps so much and I dont know if in Athens I ll manage to fond this kind of classes...

2. better make up techniques when I go out: not 3 layers of foundation but at least put more accent to my eyes, whenever I do it (like 5 times per year) everyone notices and loves it!Yesterday I tried it and I got "hit on " n the street three times in a matter of few hours, wow!

3. clothing: I have gone a long way those past few months, having used less my jeans and all stars and more ballarinas, skirts, dresses and normal trousers...but there is always room for improvement. I think I should invest this year in a pair of tight jeans that show off my ass, maybe a pair of winter ballarinas and a couple of mre feminine tops. Oh , and definately winter dresses and maye another pair of boots. Bags I have already enough and anyway guys dont notice that. Maybe consider another coat, because the one i bought from nice things last year is already a bit worn out. I hate that: it is such a pretty coat, I paid expensive for it because it is hand made and exactly because it is handmade and so delicate in a matter of few months it was already worn out...grrrr:(

Not sure if those steps will bring any change to my non exisitng love life, but I have nothing to loose...To be honest I feel much more confident lately that something good will come pretty soon. I also believe that I have changed a lot and I am ready not to repeat mistakes of the past, ie cheating, emotional fuckwitts, comfort relationships etc. Finally, when I compare myself with other girls (which I know I shouldnt do because everyone is unique blah blah blah, but I just cant help it) I dont think I am missing anything. So what are you waiting for my "prince"?Where are you?

That said, there is a cut eguy in the office, M. from WGEID and this month, since G. is on holiday, I am working with him. Well, what I have to do mainly is quite boring but at least I will have an excuse to regularly talk to him and who knows. We already ahd a coffee on Mondy morning so that he would expalin me how to clear the backlog of Sri Lanka cases and it was so nice. He's quite young so we discussed about missing home, the internship, his master etc. And the other day I was walking to work and had my mp3 on so wasnt really paying attention to the rest of the world and he came up and talked to me and we walked together to work. He is very friendly,smiling etc and not formal at all, but I doubt there is nothing more to it, i bet he is like that pretty much with everyone. So doubt anything is going to happen in my 3 last weeks. Still it is nice to feel the need to dress up for work because I have a cute supervisor:)And having coffee with him Monday morning really made my day, even my week!

Back to Athens...soon

I just came back from my vacation on Greece two days ago...I didn't really want to come back to Geneva, I loved being chez moi, I had really missed my family and my friends, especially my family!However, it is only for one more month: I booked this afternoon my ticket and I am flying back-for good-on the 1st of September:)

While I was on holiday I also did some job research and it paid: I probably have a job as soon as I go back, I will be a lawyer in training at a law firm situated in Kolonaki, classy!I am still looking for something more HR related, but I dont mind working for a few months there, so as to start making some money finally...Problem with working with HR is that everyone is asking for volunteers, very few people are willing to pay you to work for them so my research regarding HR NGOs is not very encouraging so far:(

Next step, after I have a job, is getting an appartement of my own. Either renting a new appartement or moving in my deceased grandmothers' house. I think I would take option B if I could choose, because that would mean that I would have a huge appartement and no rent:)

I am not sad that I will leave Geneva, I think it is enough. I liked the experience of the city and loved th einternship, but that is it, I dont feel I could spend more time here...And anyway, all of my frineds are gone, only Carmen is still here.So I am feeling a bit lonely in the office and I dont feel like Geneva ha sa lot more to offer to me.

I am excited about moving back but in the same time stressed about HOW I am moving back. Too much stuff. It is out of the question that I will take all of my stuff on the airplane and my uncle can take back only so much bagage...So, the only solutions are the moving companies or the post office. I am starting my research tomorrow!