Warming up for exams!

I had a great weekend.I didn't do mauch, but it was great!
Saturday morning got up quite early and started studying seriously for exams. They are less than 2 weeks away and besides gathering notes, articles to read etc I haven't done much-i've been talking about it for at least 2 months but i've done NOTHING! Around lunch time i took some clothes to the dry cleaners and next to it there is an ANDRE shoe store, know it from my Rouen days, so i thought to go in take a look, since there are still sales(unbelievable sales!) -and i found the brown boots i have been searching about, with 50%off! Exactly what i wanted and they go perfectly with my brown bag i got for new years and with my coat...and with everything:)
Extremely happy, i went back, ate salad for lunch while watching 24, season 7,episode 5!Have i told u it's my favourite show(together with x-files and sex and the city)?I LOVE it!I've been waiting for a year for the new episodes and they are finally here! Studied some more, Marcela drop by for some coffee etc, then A. called me if i wanted tohang out tonight with 2 friends of his and initially i was tempted, but then...i realised the new episode of my favourite greek series is finally on google video so i kindly declined, light up the little lights i bought from ikea,put some soup in the pan to heat(minestrone-new flavour) and poured the final glass from the jewish wine(shalom) girls brought me the other day...and it was perfect!
In the middle of it, Th. dropped by, we drank tea and we chatted.Thanx god not about her failed romance with T., because i really think she's acting stupid since he decided to saty with his gf...We talked about our master here, life, work etc, i like her much more inthis context:P
Then i went back to studying and slept around 1 o clock.
Today i woke up early, ate muesli for breakfast(the crunchy one, with the fruits!), started studying but around 11 i took the bike for a ride around town, i ve been thinking about it for weeks but i always postpone it.Well, i m leaving Strasbourg in a month, so i should stop postpone things and just do them!I went until the orangerie parc, watched the families with the children running around, sat beside the frozen lake listening to music...Then headed downtown and went to "L'epicerie", luckily it wasn't foul yet.Ordered soup du jour and a glass of pinot blanc and copied some notes. There were ONLY couples in there, i was the only one who was , well, only...but i wasn't too uncomfortable, i just didn't know where to look while i was eating. I couldn't look at my notes, window was away from my seat...but i still made it ok:)
When i got back home, i took a shower, then i put on all those creams and sprays that smell awesome and got back to studying. It's going quite well considering that i m still warming up and haven't entered exams period yet in my mind-when i do realise it, i ll go much faster!
And i started thinking...Since i'm going anyway to paris, maybe i should apply for the masters program at assas, for humanitarian law. G. told us that if we're interested about the un etc we should combine our human rights program with a humanitarian one or something like that. So why not? Maybe i'll try to find a job for next year, i dont want to be anymore a full time student living with dad's money and it could work out. I m not sure yet, i already miss a lot my family and friends, but it sounds logical. And i don't have a BF or a steady job waiting for me back home, so maybe i shoul try it, i have nothing to loose. However, i won't talk about it with my parents yet, maybe in easter.
The only black page on my weekend was when i decided to watch a dvd while dining(macaroni and cheese!!!). SAW 3 and 4 i couldn't play them, i dont know what kind of files i downloaded and i dont have the program to play them...Brokeback mountain is impossible to understand without subtitles because Heath Ledger is always mumbling...and i have no other film left unseen (except casablanca, but i wasn't in the mood for it). So instead i watched the pilot from the greek series i mentioned earlier, because i had never seen how it all started, washed the dishes and, well, here i am. In a few minutes i'm going up to A. because she'll give me a Woody Allen film. I doubt that i 'll watch it, i have to read about the CoE's social charter for tomorrow.
I m also back on diet, the most fattening thing i ve eaten lately is the crunchy muesli inthe morning.Other than that ..it's salads, soups and vegetables!Oh and the macaroni, but i didn't even put any butter:P
And a few tablets of dark chocolate, but that's just fuel for the brain!

I've done it!

I closed my facebook account!!!I have been thinking of doing it for a couple of weeks now but I couldn't get it through, I just kept staring at the deactivate button and then clicked on home button and..here we go again!
Today I finally did it, though it was harder than I imagined:PFirst u click onthe deactivate button and then it reminds you that each one of your friends will miss you (barbara is going to miss YOU), it asks you why u r closing the account(because I fucking spent too much time on it!) and then u have to type the weird letters so as that it will be sure u r not a robot...and then it's deactivated. But in the final screen there is ofcourse a reminder that you can reactivate it ANY time just by logging in as u used to do...so it's really easy to fall back into the trap.
I ll try to keep my decision until after exams, maybe i will reactivate it when i move to Paris.
Why did I do it?Well, 20th january is a milestone for me.Not because of Obama's inauguration ceremony, although i like the historic connection!
3 years ago, on the 20th january 2006, i started dating the stupid french guy.After exactly one year, on the 19th january 2007, he broke up with me, breaking my heart in a thousand pieces...i leave the details for some other time...Beginning the day i made the terrible choice of starting dating him, my romantic life has gone down the drain.Even as we were dating it was going down the drain, although i didn't realise it at the moment because i was so in love. Anyway, afterwe broke up I hadn't had a real, serious relationship..it's just flings or friends with benefits...and it has started to suck:P
Briefing completed, why do I choose this date as a milestone?Because i feel that finally this year i should start looking more seriously at my love life, or rather the lack of it. I also took the decision on the 20th to move to Paris for my internship, because that's when i learnt for sure i didnt get the internship in strasbourg.
And i also closed my facebook account, got mature enough and realised that i dont really need it and photo tags and status comments are something i can live without.I can also live without looking at other persons ohotos.I do it all the time and it's normal, that's why they are there for, but then i start getting depressed when i see beautiful girls with cute bf's and happy fotos kissing etc.I get really depressed.Even by looking at the fotos of my brother with his gf.I think i get most depressed with those ones.Which is weird.
But i m me and some times i take really weird decisions.
So i decided to make veeery big changes in my life. I want to go to Paris and be not another person, but a happier one. And because i only have litte more than a month to do it, changes must be radical.
So....i deactivate facebook. I start dieting. I continue my efforts for the new year resolutions, which i think are going well enough for now, although not perfect.
One of my major concerns(not prbl)is that i want to ameliorate my looks.I m not ugly, a lot of people actually tell me i m beautiful. But i feel like shit most of the time...I dont know if changing the way i look will help or if my problem is lack of confidence...
Maybe i should try to straighten my hair more often, because it looks very good on me.
And definately fight the last signs of acme(yes, almost 25 and having same prbl a s a teenager:P).
And loose some more weight.
Thats a good start!

Paris it is!

Exams are approaching, I am so not in the mood for studying the ECHR and I found today that my last decent chance to stay in Strasbourg to do my internship is gone...The UNHCR posts went to 2 other persons and no one boothered to mail us during the weekend to let us know that we shouldn't be hoping in vain,grrrrrrrrrrr,I slept on that thought yesterday, I actually had a dream about it,grrrrrrrrr.............
BUT lady from sos racisme at paris called me and appearently I have an internship there, so I think I'll be moving toParis at the end of February.C. is also probably going to Paris for her internship at UNESCO, so maybe we'll try to find a place together for 3 months, although I dont know if it's possible to find something for that little time.
In the beginning I wasnt excited at all for going to Paris but then I started thinking more about it:I dont really like Strasbourg, the persons I hang out here with are ok but I doubt that I'll miss them(except maybe A) and living in Paris????OH MY GOD!!!!
I try not to think about how i ll move all my stuff there, or how tiny and expensive my appartment will probably be, but focus on the good things: i ll get to see eiffel tower every single day, work on a subject that really fascinates me, eat pain au chocolat and drink cafe long, stroll aorund les champs elysees and maybe even shop a bit, go to the museums once again, walks next to the Seine, maybe i'll even have a bicycle(i m so sad that i ll have to sold my bicycle before leaving strasbourg...:(:(:(....) and on the top of the list is that Paris is the city of romance, maybe I ll meet the love of my life there!
And I could be like Julie Delpie in "Before sunset"...
Still, I felt quite sad tonight so I decoded not to study (hahaha) and watched Knocked Up instead which was a really sweet and funny movie, I really liked it a lot, I almost cried inthe end:P
And the soundtrack is awesome, first thing I ll be hearing tomorrow morning!

Back to the North Pole:)

Christmas holidays are over and I'm back to snowy and super cold Strasbourg...Temperatures this week range from -8oC to 0oC, it's the coldest I've ever seen and I must say that I'm not enjoying it much...Except for the snow...when I arrived everything was white and ofcourse it hasn't melted yet, so form time to time we engage with A. to good old snow ball fighting!!!
The end of Christmas holidays this year also means the end of eating without thinking about calories and the end of sitting on the couch late at night watching films and Grey's Anatomy...the end of drinking coffees with chocolate cookies with your longtime friends...the end of sleeping until noon...and the beginning of studying for exams, dieting, sales(today in France-yeahhhhh!!!!, cycling(I really missed that one!) and being alone in my room- which I hate more than anything else:(
At least I got off to a good start for 2009, my new year resolutions are working so far-but still, barely a week has passed:P
Ofcourse some things never change: P. still is moody and weird, but thanks to my resolutions he won't be getting any more to my nerves!French people are still slow workers, the "doorman"here at the residence always acts a bit like a cave man(however he was kind of friendlier this morning and more smiley:)),the princesses they are...well... princesses as always ...and G. continues to cancel our classes with him, I wonder if we'll ever be taught anything in humanitarian law this year...
Good news for ths weekend:normally R.is visiting, hasn's cancelled yet so I guess extreme cold and snow are not unknown to him(he's German)and they won't stop him from driving some 140kms from Heidelberg to Strasbourg:) I look forward to a fun weekend, he's staying chez moi...so the weekend will be at least interesting, we tend to laugh a lot together!!!